To be honest, I am looking forward to writing more again, but there needs to be something to write about.
A lot of what I am experiencing right now is private, but there are some high points.
1. I am back in my own four walls and have been for about 3 weeks. The dogs love it and so do I.
2. I have been at my new job for a month and I absolutely adore it. I also finally found a site for our next event (yesterday) and I am hugely relieved that that is finally sorted out. Hopefully my big big boss isn't going to disagree tomorrow, but I am going to stand firm on this one.
Just this past week did things finally settle a bit in my heart and head. I sat here one evening and it suddenly hit me that two months had past. Two months since that day I found out. Two months that felt like 2 years...or feel like two years. I sat here on my sofa and it just completely engulfed me that my life changed like crazy and finally, what everyone has been telling me, made sense.
This have been a Hercules effort. In the moment, when you do it, it is all good I suppose. I have always been extremely good under pressure and I functioned like I always do. I excelled and just got shit done. That is what I do at work and at home. I get shit done.
But last week I suddenly realized...WHOA. 2 months. 8 weeks. 3 countries, two dogs, 4 different homes, two suitcases, one major relationship breakup and a new job. That is a lot.
No wonder I can't sleep. I think my psyche and my body are at war right now, catching up with each other.
I can't complain other than sleep life is wonderful. I went to where the love and light was and truly let it fill me up. I am surrounded with amazing people, I have a great job, I am so, so happy I am in my hometown. Every day I walk the dogs and I see my city and my neighborhood and feel filled with love.
Fall is coming now and I feel like I am doing a good job working through all of this. I always tried to look at this as a time to grow and come out better than I went in.
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