Paddle Paddle Paddle.
Here are the things I do know:
1. I am strong. And I can swim and I always will swim.
2. I am capable to do whatever I need to do.
Those two things I do know.
I feel stress has infused most areas of my life in ways I didn't expect and see coming and that's no fun, folks. It is not.
At work, I have been entrusted with a new project that is pretty amazing, but has absolutely nothing to do with my qualifications. Now, I do appreciate the trust and I actually totally love doing it (you would too, trust me), but still. Some days I am like BUT BUT BUT. on the flipside, because I am entrusted with this project, I get to have very good conversations with my CEO, which has then again made me feel really good about my approach to management, how the company is growing and what not and I thought he very much valued what I had to say and I opened some doors he hadn't really thought about much.
WINNING there. So with the good (project that's fun) comes the really good? I try to look at it that way.
I just feel right now that I wake up every day just trying to make it through and then do it again the next days. My days are too long, I spend too much time commuting, I am tired by Thursday, but this is my life and I do work it, because it is the only one I have. But shit, do I have to spend it commuting that much. I wish I had a choice, but I do not.
This is a rant with no real direction. Sorry, but it has to be this way right now :) Just thanks for letting me rant, internets.