These past 4 weeks served as a time of reflection for many people. For me it came at the tail end of a challenging year.
I left my home and friends, moved continents, found a new job, lost a new job, had to find yet another new job, had some personal life challenges and my elderly parents were both feeling like shit.
It is in those times, that I get sad. I have come to realize that my relationships with my close friends at home will forever be changed. The friends I am closest to now, are the ones who I always had a long distance relationship with - whereas the friends I used to see daily, I am still figuring out how to connect with.
One challenge is that when I am not well, I withdraw. If you see someone daily, you can't withdraw. But if you are suddenly a world away, withdrawal shows in lack of communication and other things. This year I will try to make contact with the people I care about at least 1x per month via Skype or phone. I miss them so much and I miss so much of their lives right now. Life just blows by and I have to be better and try to stay in touch.
I have made one friend here. In one year. A co-worker. Despite the job change, I believe we will stay friends. In my new job I only work with men, so there are no chances to make new girl friends.
The hardest part of my day is walking home from work at night. That's when I used to call my girlfriends at home and now, every single day, I realize I have no one to call. Every day it reflect on that a little bit. And every day it hurts.
To do: 1. Make a proper contact list this weekend and stick to it!